This year so far has been a struggling one for yours truly. Yep it has not been that oh so bright one that I was hoping that it would have been. Now don’t get me wrong! somethings are good but right now the bad just out weighs the good these days.
Now granted at the beginning of the year was the worst. Again I don’t need to really go down the road as why. Let’s just leave it as I made a huge mistake and it is something I have to live with. I have learned a lot from it all. I have learned who is ones I can call true friends and ones that was just friends to your face only. You see I never had to email out tons of people to say my side of the mistake like someone else. In fact I never tried to guilt someone into feeling sorry for me and make them stick around. Make it seem like a choice on to stick around or not like another has done. I have seeked to email out tons of others to do more damage instead of letting things go. Never once had to email out a bunch of half truth stuff to others to get focus on to me. Nope I quietly accepted my fate in what I had done. I am still accepting because it hurts each day that goes by. I hurt someone I cared about plain and simple. I don’t need to go around telling everyone…what good does that do? What good does it do to try to guilt someone in? Sure its sad to see ones I thought was friends and family having made a choice instead of keeping neutral but thats life. I won’t talk badly about them I have no reason to do so. The only ones that I have any and yes this will be the first in a long time have hate for…..those ones and yes they know who they are and the reasons behind it. I have lost respect for some because it seems they have for me. For whatever reasons those are is their choice if they listen to just one side of a story.
Besides learning about who my true friends are….I have gained several new. I have gained a few new members and rooms on the sites I run. www.darkrealmschat.com, www.starlightchat.com and www.chatresort.com. 
yes that was three shameless plugs with in my ranting 
I am just good like that 
Anyway with gaining those that is part of the good that has happened. New friends, family and so on.
There is more bad I could go into but most of that revolves around my life outside of the interenet. Yes even I have a life despite how certain ones say I have none. Guess it shows that one is wrong again :p
Anyway I have no need to bore everyone with details of my r/t and the other things I struggle with.
Oh on the other good side since I am still a kid at heart yep! I finally saved up enough to purchase that Playstation 3 system that I have wanted. The great thing about it besides the obvious of allowing me to blow off some steam via video games..and that the fact that one of my favorite games sequels is coming out to it…Sacred 2!!! This system allows me to watch the blue-ray movies that I been wanting to start collecting eventually. Though to be honest I am still more for the standard DVDs…I just hate having to once again move on with the technology and scrap all the DVDs I have for a new tech. I mean damn! I just finally started to get rid of my VSH movies! Ok not fully but still!
Well thats all I have for now…perhaps I’ll have something more important to post about soon…until then……just remember He who eats too many jelly beans, farts in living color
NOT! …..I hate getting older….My body feels it in the mornings already at just age 29. What I am going to feel like 10 or so years from now? Thats saying I live that long! *L* Some will probably say I am much younger then that in heart. They are probably right…*shrug*